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Truly a brave thing from her to write about what she was suffering from. It is a rare thing to get an insight in the true reason for a hiatus and eventual graduation.

I hope that by writing this she will also get a load of her shoulders, even though she has graduated and has, what looks like, a nice career going on I am pretty sure that from time to time she was still confronted with people asking what was wrong with her in her final HKT years. Now that that question is answered she can truly leave her idol persona behind and be who she truly is.

I will make a toast to her bravery tonight.

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I read the translation of her blog entry and I had a hard time reading it Very brave of Haruppi letting us know her true reason and at the same time just wanna give her a hug. Must be a hard time and I think this illness is a "lifetime" disease?
I think this was the reason why she decided to cut idol life, would be a hardship to manage it
Very strong move of her letting us know "everything". Brave Haruppi

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Just wanna give Haruppi a hug and tell her she is very brave for telling us this and that I know how it feels (Since I suffer from this as well).

ForrestFuller, Mar 30, 2021

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Maximum respect to Haruppi for being brave and admitting a sickness with a stigma. I've seen among my friends what bipolar disorder can cause, so I hope she has proper meds and therapy available.

Tuhis, Mar 30, 2021

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Haruppi has just posted a blog entry in which she's opened up quite candidly about her time in HKT48:
https://note.com/haruka_kodama/n/nac17a9396bd2

I've run it through Google Translate:

Idol light and shadow ①

"Why did you graduate from idol? Since I graduated, I have been asked this question many times in interviews and interviews.

Direct reason is is "because became manic depression." At that time, so the answer is why not also in many circumstances

"because there is thought that want to go the way of your play when you thought the future was strong."

And It wasn't a mistake, but he answered a bland reason that wasn't essential.

What would I say now?

It came out when I thought so,

"because collective action was not good"

.......

eｰｰｰ! !!

Why did you join the 48 group? (ﾟ д ﾟ) //

It's a place where I want to put in a tsukkomi, but at first I didn't have any room to notice.

AKB48 As the name implies, HKT48 is also an idol group with nearly 50 members.

Many things happen when young girls get together. Envy and backbiting are commonplace. I can't be bothered.

What?

I can pass it on now, but I was so foolish and serious that I was really depressed.

The members are friends, but of course there is competition.

In the general election, the ranking comes out, and in the handshake event, it is evaluated by sales.

It was an environment where people could always be compared and ranked.

It's also a national broadcast terrestrial, and when I was on the side of watching, who would be number one? I enjoyed watching it, but when it came time to participate, it was a pain.

During the election period, I was stressed every day.

If you run 100m and the fastest time is the first person! !! High score in the test! Then you may have been convinced.

However, the AKB48 selection general election that you all know has a special mechanism, although it is touted as a popularity vote.

As a child, I couldn't handle my mind well.

Isn't the recommended men seen by fans always the only one and No. 1? Just as my child is unconditionally dear, but when the ranking is announced,

"I'm inferior to that child" "I'm not attractive"
"I'm sorry I couldn't achieve my goal

The feeling of " is coming.

I'm glad to get the ranking, but I just want to express my gratitude to the fans who support me first, but I hate myself even more when I think about it.

I have to work harder!

I have to go up!

I have to be good at singing and dancing!

I have to be more beautiful!

I have to update more SNS!

For the group, for the fans!

More than that child ... more! !!

I will never be satisfied.
I can't admit myself.

But I don't think I could come this far with a solo idol.

I'm definitely here thanks to AKB48 and HKT48.

It was because of the large number of people that the 48 groups became so famous.

Collective action was indispensable.

Originally I was not good at being in a group, but I became even more disgusted.
Rather than enough. .. ..

AKB48 I was watching on TV.

An idol who is dressed in a gorgeous costume, sings and dances with a popping smile, and delivers energy to the viewer.

I knew for myself that the girls in the spotlight were dazzlingly shining and spending these days out of sight.

I think that the moment when the light and shadow turned into darkness was manic depression.

The members who are still active are really dazzling.

I will send you an ale of respect and heart.
Please do not let the light turn into darkness,

and finally, I have been supporting HKT48 including 48 groups all the time!

.....

Thank you for reading the long text. This article was good! It touched my heart! I would be grateful if you could like it and support me. Thank you ^ _ ^
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The google translate covers it really well but I also attempted to translate Haruppi's post by myself with my poor Japanese. I've really not followed idols at all since just before Haruppi went on her long hiatus. I remember when she failed to break into the senbatsu during the 7th senbatsu and how much it destroyed her, then when she failed to rank in that Kohaku show after believing she was first and how that destroyed her even more. Honestly it was painful watching her constantly struggle and fail to meet the high expectations she always placed on herself. She was under so much pressure in HKT. I pulled out all of my old HKT DVDs a few days ago (Team H's te wo tsunaginagara all the way through to the Honki no Aidoru tour in 2017) but I can't really bring myself to watch them knowing what she was suffering through.
I'm just proud she had the courage to speak up about her struggles and hope she continues to do great from here on out.

"Why did you quit being an idol?"
Since graduating, I've been asked this so many times in interviews and in news coverage.
The direct reason is " because I was diagnosed with manic depression " but at that time, for a lot of reasons, I wasn't able to give this answer.
"When I thought of the future, my thoughts of continuing on the path of an actress became stronger"
This wasn't wrong, but my response was bland and without substance.
How would I as I am now answer that question?
and what came out was
"because I'm terrible at working in a group"
...
HUH!?
Then why did you join the 48 group!? (　ﾟдﾟ)//
I wanted to insert a Tsukkomi there but at the beginning realised there wasn't room for it.

AKB48, just as the name implies, HKT48 is also a performing idol group with almost 50 members.
When girls of that age gather, a lot of things happen. Jealousy, envy, talking behind each other's backs. Things like that were an every day occurrence. I can't be happy or sad about it.
As I am now I can avoid that, but the stupidly serious past me took it seriously and became depressed.
The members are all comrades but of course there's rivalry.
At the general election we're ranked, at handshake events we're evaluated by our sales.
We're constantly compared to others, it's an environment where rank is attached to everything.
and the entire country television broadcasts...

When I was on the other side I watched it excitedly thinking "Who's going to be number 1!?" but when it comes to taking part, it's painful.
During the election I was tormented every day with terrible stress.
If you run the hundred meters, the person with the fastest time is first place. In a test the highest mark is first place. Then you might understand.

However, the AKB48 general election everybody knows that's famous for its popularity vote has a special function.
As a child, my heart couldn't deal with it well.
From the fans isn't their supported member always the one and only?
Like loving your child unconditionally and dearly...
and yet, when the rankings were announced:
"I'm inferior to that girl"
"It's because I don't have enough charm"
"I'm sorry that I couldn't reach my goal"

Those feelings were overwhelming.
Even though I'm glad to have been given this ranking
Even though first of all I want to express my thanks to the fans that supported me
Thinking about that I hate myself even more

"I have to do even better!"
"I've got to go higher!"
"I've got to get better at dancing and singing!"
"I have to become even more beautiful!"
"I've got to update my SNS even more!"
"For the sake of the group, for the sake of the fans!"
"More than that girl... More! More!"

No matter how much time passes I'll never be satisfied.
I'll never approve of myself.
But I don't think I could have come this far as a solo idol.
There's no doubt that I'm here now thanks to AKB48 and HKT48
The 48 group became this famous because of the huge number of girls in it that didn't want to lose.
Working in a group is indispensible.
Even though I was originally the type of person that couldn't work with a group
I began to hate myself even more

That was enough

That AKB that was sparkling on TV.
Dressed in a dazzling outfit, A beaming smile while she sings and dances, an idol that delivers energy to everybody watching her.
Dazzling so much they would shine
Those girls under the spotlight
Spending every day in a place where they were invisible, I knew it all too well
At that moment when the light and shadow turned to darkness, I think that's manic depression.

Even now, the participating members are honestly radiant.
I yell at them with nothing but respect from the bottom of my heart.
Please, don't let that light turn into darkness.
and finally the 48 Group and HKT48, I'll always be supporting you!
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Slimestack, Apr 1, 2021

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Here's another translation for reference:

https://twitter.com/HT_xrahmx/status/1377241991113814020

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Another late night snack　お茶漬け　ochazuke

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sscrla, Apr 4, 2021

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Haruppi has tweeted that she's appearing in a new movie called 'Osaka yamikin' ('yamikin' = 'loan shark') which is due for release on 4/10. I've found a trailer for it in which she appears:

if the video does not show watch the video here

Movie poster:

Some publicity stills with Haruppi:

(Source: https://eiga.com/movie/94563/)

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David61, Apr 6, 2021

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Three snacks from depachika (basement food halls) which go well with highball:

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David61, Apr 26, 2021

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Interview in Pop'n'Roll about her new play (I can pretend that I read the article, but if you are old enough, you know the truth about Playboy).

"Kodama Haruka will appear as a female police officer, Tomoko Mizuno, on the stage “Tampering, Atami Murder Case Monte Carlo Illusion” which will be staged from March 2020. For Kodama, who has been active as an actress since 2019, this work will be his second appearance on the stage since he came to see me in September of the same year. What kind of feelings do she want to take on the main stage, a new challenge as an actor? Along with the previous work and recent private, I asked the actress, Kodama Haruka about the current situation.

―― Last time, we talked before the stage <Come to Me> before the performance. I think you've had some stage experience in the past, but that was the first step in your career as an actress. You were a strong female reporter, and you said that you were the exact opposite of yourself, but how did you actually perform?
Kodama: It was fun. It was rewarding. Because I was able to express myself that I didn't have it, or that my feelings of anger weren't very visible.

――The performance lasted for several days. Did you fine-tune your performance along the way?
Kodama: In the scene where the co-stars are performing, not only me, but also the dialogue of the people around me and the flow up to that point, it was important that my performance was different every time.

――In the <Tampering / Atami Murder Case> performed in March, you are a former hurdle player* and a woman police officer, right?
Kodama: That's right. A woman who was a hurdle fell in love, but she was also a police officer because she was a police officer. I imagined that way and read the script. Police have the image of a male society, but I think that they are strong women who can fight in such a situation, so I hope that they will play with a stronger image than when they came to <Meet Me> . But I don't know what happens because the training hasn't started yet (laughs).

――You said that your role was an image of a “strong woman,” but is there anything you would particularly like to see as a character?
Kodama: I guess the swing is as a character. I'm a single woman, but I'm a person who can see a variety of personalities ... I've been bright and fine until now, but suddenly from here serious mode !? I want to play it with strong and weak.

*Jisho ハードル選手 (hurdle athlete)

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https://popnroll.tv/articles/6717
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Because of Corona, the staging was not completed as scheduled. Now it is rescheduled for June.

"It was announced that Kodama Haruka will appear in <Falsification / Atami Murder Case Monte Carlo Illusion ~ Revenge Adventure ~> to be performed at Kinokuniya Hall in Shinjuku from June 24th (Thursday) to 27th (Sunday). ..

This work will be performed as the second installment following the <New Atami Murder Case>, which will be the first play performance of the new Kinokuniya Hall.

This work, which is considered to be the most unusual work among the many versions of <Atami Murder Case>, was held last year at the 10th anniversary of Tsuka Kohei's death at the <Tsuka Kohei Theater Festival>.・ Illusion> was staged by Norihito Nakayashiki, who produced a sensation at the opening of the show and became a hot topic. However, due to the spread of corona infection, the performance was canceled without completing all the dates.

The heroine, Tomoko Mizuno, is former HKT48 member Kodama Haruka who has reached a new frontier as an actress and has brilliantly performed her sorrow. (? shown grief ?)

Venue: Shinjuku Kinokuniya Hall
performance period: 2021 June 24 (Thursday) -27th (Sunday )
Ticket general sale: May 29, 2021 (Saturday)
Ticket price: ¥ 7,500 (tax included / all seats reserved)

https://popnroll.tv/articles/16727

https://www.atami2020.jp/

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sscrla, Apr 28, 2021

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More snacks from depachika to go with highball:

if the video does not show watch the video here

David61, May 1, 2021

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Some news:

A bit of a health scare (from her instagram). She had a fever of 40.5° C and was worried about covid, but the PCR test came back negative. "I don't know the exact cause yet"

https://www.instagram.com/p/COsiuUvBNSM/

She also started using Note at the end of March, as mentioned by @David61.

https://note.com/haruka_kodama

One from the middle of April is a followup to the one about her depression.

"I hesitated at first, but I think that by writing an article about depression in a note and talking about the episodes until I got over it, the reader thought about it and talked about the inner part. It makes me happy that I have a deeper relationship.

It's difficult to open your heart.
I am the type that takes a lot of time.
If you don't say it, no one knows it, and you don't even know it, so there's no possibility of being hurt unnecessarily.

I was trapped, but I thought it was fun because there was an unexpected chemical reaction that I would courageously convey .
I hope I can continue to deliver articles that open my heart with a little courage."

https://note.com/haruka_kodama/n/n55b3ed231b45

sscrla, May 11, 2021

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Two sides of Haruppi.

Fun loving:

This is an off-shot of last year's official calendar shoot, but since I've become fatter than this time, I hurriedly started a diet I'll do my best without laughing !

https://www.instagram.com/p/CO5Cxnrhaly/

Serious:

Another note about depression.

Today I would like to talk about the signs of depression.
Do you usually listen to the voice of your heart?
I was a teenager at the time and I was healthy! I was overconfident and there was no stress! I think that I was working by killing the true voice of my heart all the time without knowing it.
When we hear about health, we tend to be conscious of our bodies, but in reality, our minds are also an important part of humans.
Rather , I think that I should pay attention to the number one as much as I can say, "I'm sick."
Please listen to the honest voice of your own heart.

[She talks about hallucinating after SSK while trying to sleep]

It seems that people who are serious, have a strong sense of responsibility, are perfectionist, have a high evaluation from people, and have a strong sense of morality tend to be affected.

https://note.com/haruka_kodama/n/ndd068a3e17d1

sscrla, May 19, 2021

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A couple of new videos about snacks to go with highball, this time with a comedy duo called The Mummy:

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David61, Jun 5, 2021

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She is on the cover of the July issue of SENSE.

https://www.instagram.com/p/CPvVcq0hPfg/
https://www.instagram.com/p/CPuR98bNAeU/

The shirt seems to be from the 1988 "Life's Too Good" Bjork/Sugarcubes tour.

Update: video

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sscrla, Jun 5, 2021

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sscrla said: ↑

"It was announced that Kodama Haruka will appear in <Falsification / Atami Murder Case Monte Carlo Illusion ~ Revenge Adventure ~> to be performed at Kinokuniya Hall in Shinjuku from June 24th (Thursday) to 27th (Sunday). ..

This work will be performed as the second installment following the <New Atami Murder Case>, which will be the first play performance of the new Kinokuniya Hall.
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There was a stage greeting and rehearsal on the 9th (Mukaichi Mion was also there for the other play - see her thread).

"The first "New Atami Murder Case" and the second "Kaizan Atami Murder Case Monte Carlo Illusion-Aventure of Revenge-" at Kinokuniya Hall in Shinjuku, Tokyo, which has been undergoing renovation work since January this year. The stage greeting was held at the same venue on June 9th (Wednesday)."

Kodama, who plays the role of policewoman Tomoko Mizuno in the stage "Falsification / Atami Murder Case," explained that "Tomoko Mizuno is the mistress of the director," and said, "It's not the mistress you think, but it's complicated. I hope you can enjoy watching her thoughts and love. "

https://25jigen.jp/report/47019
https://www.chunichi.co.jp/article/269585

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sscrla said: ↑

There was a stage greeting and rehearsal on the 9th (Mukaichi Mion was also there for the other play - see her thread).

"The first "New Atami Murder Case" and the second "Kaizan Atami Murder Case Monte Carlo Illusion-Aventure of Revenge-" at Kinokuniya Hall in Shinjuku, Tokyo, which has been undergoing renovation work since January this year. The stage greeting was held at the same venue on June 9th (Wednesday)."

Kodama, who plays the role of policewoman Tomoko Mizuno in the stage "Falsification / Atami Murder Case," explained that "Tomoko Mizuno is the mistress of the director," and said, "It's not the mistress you think, but it's complicated. I hope you can enjoy watching her thoughts and love. "
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Haruppi mentioned on her fanclub that she met Mion. Haruppi's play was postponed last year because of Covid restrictions if I recall correctly so they are catching up now.

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She came to sing Otona Ressha at Sakura's gradcon

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And just for a moment it was the old times again.

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