"I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows 'it was a sin to lock them up' does rejoice. But still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone. I guess I just miss my friend."
- Ellis Boyd 'Red' Redding speaking about Andy Dufresne in The Shawshank Redemption
The above quote is the only thing I can relate to when I think about Ochi's graduation from JKT48.
This time I am writing an article a little differently. Instead of putting important relevant quote at the end of an article, I am now putting it at the beginning, because I can't emphasize enough how I really feel about the loss of a great talent in JKT48, Ms Neneng Rosdiana ( ロスディアナ ネネン ) or Ochi.
On the 8th of November, 2012, Ochi announced her intention of parting from JKT48 over tweets on her Twitter account ( @ochiJKT48 ), which later on the same day were deleted, presumably by JKT48 Operation Team. I felt stupid because early morning on the same day, I jokingly asked her if the seifuku ( uniform costume ) that she was wearing was sponsored by the new Jakarta's governor ( "JKTbaru" = the new JKT / Jokowi-Ahok ). And of course the stupid question got unanswered. Instead, what I got was the tweets about her intention of leaving JKT48. My heart crumbled into pieces. Truly, truly... that day I just couldn't focus on doing anything.
Today, 21st of November, 2012, Ochi's graduation was officially announced by JKT48 Operation Team via http://jkt48.com/news/detail/id/85?lang=jp
. A sad day indeed.
I am not going to get long-winded in this article. I would not even try to make any wild-guess over the reasons for her graduation, be it health problems, family problems or any unforeseen reasons. I just want to mention that there are several things I regret about Ochi's departure from JKT48, personally speaking.
Firstly, it was a tad too early for her to depart from JKT48. When Acchan ( 前田 敦子 Atsuko Maeda ) graduated from AKB48, the only thing that fans could regret about is her absence in AKB48's and Team-A's performances. Nobody would regret that she didn't go far enough in AKB48, simply because she most probably went the furthest. Ochi is on the other hand too new to JKT48, I was kind of expecting that she would have gone further using JKT48 as her vehicle. Now my hope had sunken.
Secondly, I saw great talent in her. I am not saying that I am a talent expert or the likes, but to me personally she is one of the most talented JKT48 members, if not THE most talented, especially given her very tender age (she is the 2nd youngest member among JKT48's 1st generation members, second only to Nabilah). I fell in love with Ochi a bit too late. So it is very regrettable for me personally to face the fact that such a great talent is leaving JKT48 as soon as I fell for her.
Lastly, I just feel that the absence of Ochi in JKT48 is too great a loss for JKT48 as a team. Ochi has been one of the members with significant "presence" in almost every JKT48's appearance, not to mention that she is arguably one of the most central members. She was one member that seemed to actually contribute positively to the team. From the posts, pictures and videos posted by various members, I deduced that Ochi was one that brought joy to many members. She definitely brought joy to me through her tweets on Twitter.
I am grateful that I had one chance (although now appears to be the last chance) of watching her performing live spectacularly in Jakarta48 Theater on the 22nd of September, 2012. I am going to treasure that memory.
I regret I cannot attend her last performance during her graduation this coming Sunday, 25th of November, 2012.
Despite all that I have to say, as a huge fan of both Ochi and JKT48, I truly believe Ochi has decided what is best for her life. She knows her life and her needs better than anyone in the world does. Let us appreciate and respect her decision.
This is not about me. This is about Ochi and her life.
Regret no more I shall.
I want to witness Ochi successfully fulfills all her dreams.
I want to witness Ochi blossoms.
Although no longer via JKT48.
I wish all the best for Ochi's future endeavors.
I will always support you!
We love you, Neneng "Ochi" Rosdiana!
Thank you for ever putting smiles on our face and hopes in our heart.
Farewell for now...
Last but not least, stay "AZEEKKK...!"
"I may know what someone did. But I will never know what someone has been through.
"When the sakura petals bloom, all over the world everyone prays, to be able to open the door, to a new world. The petals of my tears are floating down. My memories are beautiful. The stairs to adulthood before my eyes. Let's wave and take them together.
桜の花びらたちが咲く頃, どこかで 誰かがきっと祈ってる, 新しい世界のドアを, 自分のその手で開くこと. 涙の花びらたちがはらはら. 思い出のその分だけ 美しく. 目の前の大人の階段. 一緒に登って手を振ろう.
"This Goodbye is Not for Eternity
~ a song especially composed for and dedicated to Ochi by a fellow 48 fan "Angga"http://sutanyanadi.blogspot.sg/2012/11/neneng-ochi-rosediana-graduated-from_21.html