本性 | Honsho | My Nature

互いにとっての理想を
押し付け合うような時間が
最近はずっと苦痛なんだ
気に入って飾ってた絵が
不愉快に思えてしまって
黙って不燃の日に出したんだ

愛とか恋とか言うけどそれも
利害関係の上
賜った美辞麗句も
虚ろに響くだけ

白く綺麗な豪邸が
内側から腐り始めてる

シビアな損得勘定を
抜きに世界を語るのは不毛だよ
笑うのは僕だ平伏して泣け

剥き出しでいたい
愛してよ
退屈で死んでしまいそう

絡まったコードみたいに
神経を逆撫でする
現状は見るも無残なんだ
凍結しているプランを
再開するような気力は
何かによって削がれていってしまうんだ

黙れよ虫けらども

指定の単純労働を
やらせて檻に入れるのは酷だよ
味のしない餌に吐きそう

全てを出したい
ぶちまけて
軽蔑されてもいいから

うしろめたさが風になびく
どこで間違ったのか
どちらが被害者かもわからずに今

積み上げたものが全て
砂上の塔のように傾いてる
花瓶がどこか遠くで割れる

炎に焼かれて笑え
あるがままであろうとする不条理を
抱いて地獄の淵を這おう
剥き出しでいたい
愛してよ
これがこの僕の本性

tagai ni totte no risou wo
oshitsukeau you na jikan ga
saikin wa zutto kutsuu nanda
ki ni itte kazatteta e ga
fuyukai ni omoete shimatte
damatte funen no hi ni dashitanda

ai to ka koi to ka iu kedo sore mo
rigai kankei no ue
tamawatta bijireiku mo
utsuro ni hibiku dake

shiroku kirei na goutei ga
uchigawa kara kusari hajimeteru

SHIBIA na sontoku kanjo wo
nuki ni sekai wo kataru no wa fumou da yo
warau no wa boku da hirefushite nake

mukidashi de itai
ai shite yo
taikutsu de shinde shimaisou

karamatta KOODO mitai ni
shinkei wo sakanade suru
genjo wa miru mo muzan nanda
touketsu shite iru PURAN wo
saikai suru you na kiryoku wa
nani ka ni yotte sogarete itte shimaunda

damare yo mushikera domo

shitei no tanjun roudou wo
yarasete ori ni ireru no wa koku da yo
aji no shinai esa ni hakisou

subete wo dashitai
buchimakete
keibetsu sarete mo ii kara

ushirometasa ga kaze ni nabiku
doko de machigatta no ka
dochira ga higaisha kamo wakarazu ni ima

tsumiageta mono ga subete
sajou no tou no you ni katamuiteru
kabin ga doko ka tooku de wareru

honoo ni yakarete warae
aru ga mama de arou to suru fujouri wo
Idaite jigoku no fuchi wo haou
mukidashi de itai
ai shite yo
kore ga kono boku no honsho

The time spent asserting
Our ideals on each other
It’s been a pain recently.
The picture that I took a liking for and had hung up
Is starting to feel unpleasant
So I threw it out quietly on the day they collect incombustible waste

They talk about love and crushes but that is
Only established through shared interests
Even the flowery words you gave me
Just echo in the emptiness

The beautiful white mansion
Is starting to rot from the inside

Without severely accounting for losses and gains
It is fruitless to talk about the world
I'm the one who will stand laughing, bow before me and cry

I want to be frank at all times
Love me
I'm bored to death

Like a tangled cord
It rubs my nerve in the wrong way
The current situation is pitiful to look at
The plan which we froze
The willpower to revive it
Is being dampened by something

Shut up, you scums

Just making them work on designated unskilled labor
And then putting them in a cage is harsh
Eating unsavory feed makes me feel like throwing up

I want to blurt out everything
Vent it all out
I don't mind being despised

My guilty conscience flutters in the wind
Where did it go wrong
We don't even know who the victim is now

Everything we've worked for
Is leaning like a tower on sand
The vase breaks somewhere far away

Laugh while being burnt by flames
The absurdity of being myself
I shall embrace it and crawl on the floor of hell
I want to be frank at all times
Love me
This is my nature