軽蔑していた愛情 | Keibetsu shite ita aijou | Scorned Love

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携帯のメールを打ちながら
絵文字のような日常

大人は訳知り顔して
動機を探しているけど
ピント外れたその分析は
笑えないギャグみたい

偏差値次第の階級で
未来が決められてる
もう頑張っても
どうしようもないこと
ずいぶん前に
気づいてただけ
私たち

軽蔑していた愛情
知らぬ間に求めている
孤独になんてなりたくない
抱きしめて欲しかった
誰かに・・・

鳥になろうとした少女は
屋上に靴をちゃんと揃えて
マナーを誉めて欲しかったのか
それとも当てつけなのか

いじめが"あった"とか"なかった"とか
今更　アンケートを取っても
聞いて欲しかった心の声は
風の中　届かない

責任転嫁のプロセスで
偉い人を泣かせる
まだ　わかってない
愚かすぎる連鎖を・・・
指を差すのは
何もしなかった
この自分

軽蔑していた愛情
裏腹に飢えているの
不安に気づかぬふりしながら
やさしい目　探してた
いつでも・・・

軽蔑していた愛情
知らぬ間に求めている
孤独になんてなりたくない
抱きしめて欲しかった
誰かに・・・

いつでも・・・

TEREBI no NYUUSU ga tsutaeru
tokumei de mamorareta higeki mo
[Ita/Osh/Kas] keitai no MEERU wo uchinagara
[Ita/Osh/Kas/Mae/Tak] emoji no you na
nichijou

[Mae/Osh] otona wa wakeshirigao shite
[Mae/Osh] douki wo sagashite iru kedo
[Koj/Tak] PINTO hazureta sono bunseki wa
[Koj/Tak] waraenai GYAGU mitai

hensachi shidai no kaikyuu de
mirai ga kimerareteru
[Ita/Osh/Kas/Shi/Min/Aki] mou [Ita/Osh/Kas] ganbatte mo
[Ita/Osh/Kas] dou shiyou mo nai koto
[Shi/Aki] zuibun mae ni
[Min/Osh] kidzuiteta dake
[Ita/Osh/Kas/Mae/Osh/Koj/Tak/Shi/Min/Aki] watashitachi

keibetsu shite ita aijou
shiranu ma ni motomete iru
kodoku ni nante naritakunai
dakishimete hoshikatta
dareka ni...

[Nak/Mas/Osh/Sat] tori ni narou to shita shoujo wa
[Nak/Mas/Osh/Sat] okujou ni kutsu wo chanto soroete
[Koj/Kob/Miy/Ono] MANAA wo homete hoshikatta no ka
[Koj/Kob/Miy/Ono] soretomo atetsuke na no ka

[Ita/Min/Osh/Kas] ijime ga "atta" toka "nakatta" toka
[Ita/Min/Osh/Kas] imasara ANKEETO wo totte mo
[Mae/Shi/Tak/Aki] kiite hoshikatta kokoro no koe wa
[Mae/Shi/Tak/Aki] kaze no naka todokanai

sekinin tenka no PUROSESU de
erai hito wo nakaseru
[Mae/Shi/Tak/Aki] mada [Mae/Tak] wakattenai
[Mae/Tak] oroka sugiru rensa wo...
[Nak/Mas/Osh/Sat] yubi wo sasu no wa
[Koj/Kob/Miy/Ono] nani mo shinakatta
[Mae/Shi/Tak/Aki/Nak/Mas/Osh/Sat/Koj/Kob/Miy/Ono] kono jibun

keibetsu shite ita aijou
urahara ni uete iru no
fuan ni kidzukanu furi shinagara
yasashii me sagashiteta
itsudemo...

keibetsu shite ita aijou
shiranu ma ni motomete iru
kodoku ni nante naritakunai
dakishimete hoshikatta
[Min/Nak/Osh/Kob/Mas/Miy/Ono/Sat] dareka ni...

itsudemo...

The TV news even conveys
A tragedy protected by anonymity
As ordinarily as I type out characters
In my cell phone mail

Adults make a face as though they know it all
While looking for motives
Their analysis is off point
A gag you can’t laugh

With rank based off of deviation values,
The future is decided
Even if we try our best,
It’s something that we can’t do about
Long ago
We were only made aware of it
All of us

Disdained affection
Unknowingly I’m searching
I don’t want to be so lonely
I wanted to be held
By somebody…

The girl who was about to become a bird
Properly lined up her shoes on the rooftop
Did she want to be praised for her good manners?
Or was it an insinuation?

Now, even if we take a survey
As to whether or not there was bullying,
The voice of the heart that wanted to be heard
Won’t reach through the wind

With a process of shifting responsibility,
Celebrated people are made to cry
Still we don’t understand
This too-foolish connection…
The one pointing fingers,
Who didn’t do a thing,
Is myself

Disdained affection
Even though I was hungry,
With a façade to hide my anxiety over it,
I was looking for a kind eye
Always…

Disdained affection
Unknowingly I’m searching
I don’t want to be so lonely
I wanted to be held
By somebody…

Always…

The TV news even broadcasts
a tragedy protected by privacy
just as ordinarily as a
smiley is used when typing an email on a cell phone

The adults have an "I-know-how-it-is" look
while they're searching for a motive, but
the analysis that has taken the spotlight*
is like an unfunny joke

In this class dependent on deviation value,
our future is decided for us
Even if we try,
we already noticed
the things that we can't
do anything about
long ago

Scorned love
Without realizing it, I want it
I don't want to be lonely
I wanted to be held
By someone...

The girl who tried to become a bird
properly lined up her shoes on the roof
Did she want people to admire her manners
or was it insinuation?

Even if you take a poll
this late in time about whether there
"was" or "wasn't" any bullying,
the voice of her heart, that which she wanted heard,
won't transmit through the wind

This process of shifting responsibility
makes celebrated people cry
We still don't understand
this foolish chain...
The one pointing fingers
is me, who didn't
do anything

Scorned love
While pretending to not notice the worry
about how I was starving, even though I was,
I looked for gentle eyes
Forever...

Scorned love
Without realizing it, I want it
I don't want to be lonely
I wanted to be held
By someone...

Forever...