思い出す度につらくなる | Omoidasu tabi ni tsuraku naru | It Hurts Each Time I Remember

もうこれ以上 やさしくされたら
心が崩れてしまう
泣いてないけど 瞬きをしたら
悲しみが雫になる

悪いのは私なのに
どうして怒らないの?
ただ微笑むだけで…

あなたの腕に戻れるのなら
今すぐにだって
飛び込んで行きたい
いつものように甘えたら
思い出す度につらくなるから

理想の2人になれなかったね
私が子どもすぎて…
他の男(ひと)を好きになったことが
しあわせを遠ざけてた

あなたに足りなかったのは
突き放すみたいに
背をむけることだけ

こんなに強く愛されたなら
ぬくもり求めて
逃げ込んでしまうわ
また傷ついて頼ったら
いつまでたっても強くなれない

他の男(ひと)に抱かれても
許してくれることが
余計に切なくて…

あなたの腕に戻れるのなら
今すぐにだって
飛び込んで行きたい
いつものように甘えたら
思い出す度につらくなる

こんなに強く愛されたなら
今までみたいに
私はだめになる
手を振り切って歩き出す
勇気が未来に必要でしょう
強くなりたい

mou kore ijou yasashiku saretara
kokoro ga kuzurete shimau
naitenai kedo mabataki wo shitara
kanashimi ga shizuku ni naru

warui no wa watashi na no ni
doushite okoranai no?
tada hohoemu dake de...

anata no ude ni modoreru no nara
ima sugu ni datte
tobikonde yukitai
itsumo no you ni amaetara
omoidasu tabi ni tsuraku naru kara

risou no futari ni narenakatta ne
watashi ga kodomo sugite
hoka no hito wo suki ni natta koto ga
shiawase wo touzaketeta

anata ni tarinakatta no wa
tsukihanasu mitai ni
se wo mukeru koto dake

konna ni tsuyoku aisareta nara
nukumori motomete
nigekonde shimau wa
mata kizutsuite tayottara
itsumade tatte mo tsuyoku narenai

hoka no hito ni dakarete mo
yurushite kureru koto ga
yokei ni setsunakute

anata no ude ni modoreru no nara
ima sugu ni datte
tobikonde yukitai
itsumo no you ni amaetara
omoidasu tabi ni tsuraku naru

konna ni tsuyoku aisareta nara
ima made mitai ni
watashi wa dame ni naru
te wo furikitte arukidasu
yuuki ga mirai ni hitsuyou deshou
tsuyoku naritai

If you're any kinder to me than this
My heart will crumble
I'm not crying, but if I blink
This sadness will become drops of water

Even though I'm the one at fault
Why are you not angry?
You just smile…

If I could return to your arms
I would leap into them
Right away
If I always act spoiled
It's because it hurts each time I remember

We couldn't become the ideal couple, could we?
I'm too childish
Because I fell in love with someone else
I chased away our happiness

What wasn't good enough for you
Was only that I ignore you
Like I'm pushing you away

When I'm loved this strongly
I seek warmth
And take refuge in it
If I expect to be hurt again
No matter how much time passes, I don't become stronger

Even if I'm held by someone else
The fact that I'll be forgiven for it
Is excessively painful

If I could return to your arms
I would leap into them
Right away
If I always act spoiled
It's because it hurts each time I remember

When I'm loved this strongly
Who I've been up until now
Becomes no good
Shaking free of your hand, I'll move on
Courage is necessary for the future
I want to become strong