裏切りの優等生 | Uragiri no yuutousei | Betrayal of an Honor Student

You're the worst traitor
That's not what I meant
Can't forgive, forgive me…

信用してたのに

裏切ったのは誰？
5年前の気持ちと今は変わるもの
そうであってほしい理想と現実がぼかされて
自分で自分がわからなくなった

現実って　上手くいかないんだね
真面目な子と思われて
本当の真実

言いたいのに

言えない　口縫われ　目塞がれ　縛られた
こんなふうになっちゃうなんて
思ってもなかったの
馬鹿みたいに正直に生きてきた
真面目じゃないありのままの
私を受け止めてよ　裏切りの優等生

You are such a naughty girl
You are such a clever girl
Which one？ I'm not sure…

私だって1人のニンゲンだったの
偶像になれないダメな不良品
返品出来ない時間と思い出が壊されて
時計の針を戻したかった

期待はずれ？そうね

その通りだね
「裏切られた」　「信じてた」
豹変して　勝手に期待してさ

嘘吐き　何があっても好きでいると言ったのに
あんたの望む良い子ちゃんで
いてくれたらの間違いじゃん
思うような良い子じゃないの知ったでしょ？
いつの間にか　こうなってたの
誰かが作り上げた　偽物の優等生

女が好き？それとも男が好き？
どっちだっていい
この気持ちに性別も名前もいらないから

愛してる　目を見つめ　手に触れて　確かめた
一瞬の気の迷いだって

私も思いたかった
恋に堕ちてしまったの

止められない
これで終わり優等生は
あっけなく散ってゆく愛しさの代償

I want to live for love
I want to die for love
This is the real me

You're the worst traitor
That's not what I meant
Can't forgive, forgive me...

shinyo shite ta no ni

uragitta no wa dare?
gonen mae no kimochi to ima wa kawaru mono
sode atte hoshii riso to genjitsu ga bokasarete
jibun de jibun ga wakaranaku natta

genjitsu tte umaku ikanain da ne
majime na ko to omowarete
hontou no shinjitsu

iitai no ni

ienai, kuchi naware, me fusagare, shibarareta
konna fuu ni nacchau nante
omotte mo nakatta no
baka mitai ni shoujiki ni ikite kita
majime ja nai ari no mama no
watashi wo uketomete yo uragiri no yuutosei

You are such a naughty girl
You are such a clever girl
Which one? I'm not sure...

watashi datte hitori no NINGEN datta no
guuzou ni narenai dame na furyouhin
henpin dekinai jikan to omoide ga kowasarete
tokei no hari wo modoshitakatta

kitai hazure? sou ne

sono toori da ne
"uragirareta" "shinjiteta"
hyohen shite katte ni kitai shite sa

uso haki nani ga atte mo suki de iru to itta no ni
anata no nozomu ii kochan de
ite kuretara no machigai jan
omou you na ii ko ja nai no shitta deshou?
itsu no ma ni ka kou natteta no
dareka ga tsukuriageta nisemono no yuutosei

onna ga suki? soretomo otoko ga suki?
docchi datte ii
kono kimochi ni seibetsu mo namae mo iranai kara

ai shiteru, me wo mitsume, te ni furete, tashikameta
isshun no ki no mayou datte

watashi mo omoitakatta
koi ni ochite shimatta no

tomerarenai
kore de owari yuutosei wa
akkenaku chitte yuku itoshisa no daishou

I want to live for love
I want to die for love
This is the real me

-

You're the worst traitor
That's not what I meant
Can't forgive, forgive me…

Who betrayed my trust
When I believed so deeply?
My feelings from 5 years ago have changed now
The ideal I wished for and reality have blurred
I've become unable to understand myself

Reality, it never goes as planned, right?
They thought I was a serious kid
I want to speak
The real truth but...

I can't say it, my mouth is sewn shut, my eyes are closed, I'm bound
I never thought it would turn out like this
I've lived so honestly, like a fool
Not the serious one, the real me
Accept me
Betrayal of an honor student

You are such a naughty girl
You are such a clever girl
Which one? I'm not sure…

I, too, was once just a single human being
A flawed product, unable to become an idol
Time and memories that can't be returned are destroyed
I wanted to turn back the clock

Disappointed expectations?
Yes, that's right
"You betrayed me," "I believed you"
Suddenly
I started to expect things on my own

You said you loved me, no matter what
But being the good child you wished for
Was my mistake
I guess you realized I'm not the good child you expected, right?
Before I knew it
I had become like this
Someone fabricated
A fake honor student

Do I like women? Or men?
Either is fine
I don't need gender or a name for these feelings

I love you, I looked into your eyes, touched your hand, checked in with you
Even if it was a momentary lapse in judgment, I wanted to believe it too
I've fallen in love
I can't stop
This is the end, the honor student
Falls apart unexpectedly, the price of love

I want to live for love
I want to die for love
This is the real me